How easy it was to scream with excitement during those tender years of our little beginning what our fantasies of growing up would be...
How ignorantly we imagined the elegance of the end product of Adulthood in the eyes of those innocent dreams and naïve thoughts, believing it would be nothing short of ‘A walk in the park’; Nothing impossible…Nothing different…Nothing worthy to be called a Challenge. Truly the depth of a child’s faith turns the works of the mighty into the mere joy of playing with a stuffed Teddy Bear (Little laugh at the Imagination)
While reliving the moments of Innocent dreams and memories, I remember an incidence, those rocky times marriages have to sail through before calmness sets in. There I was an ignorant member of the situation, yet I remember the helpless yet desperate emotion to do something to make it better between ‘Mummy and Daddy’; made a frantic prayer and scribbled a letter, slipping it under their bedroom door.
I wrote “Dear Mummy and Daddy, I prayed for you tonight that God would stop making mummy cry when singing sad songs and daddy would stop being always angry, please let my birthday gift be that mummy and daddy will laugh again together, buy me a mickey mouse cake and hug me in my birthday photo. I promise I won’t tell lies anymore and when I grow up I will do 3 subjects in the University= 1 for Daddy, 1 for Mummy and 1 for me so that Daddy would be proud of me .Just answer my prayer Oh God and make all of us a Happy family again…Amen!”
Right now, thinking about that night I keep asking myself what was I thinking doing that but then those were the raw sincerity of a child ready to make the world a better place.
In a nutshell, the world of a child is a limitless stretch of dreams, expectations and the energetic drive for fulfilment with happiness, yet satisfied with the very simple things; They wish to grow tall, be able to wash dishes without having it broken, have beards with the masculine depth of a voice, have a full breast in order to wear a bra just like mummy and be old enough to go to the salon to do the pretty hair seen on Tv, use lipsticks, be old enough to have a pair of High Heels and legally be able to kiss a boy, say “I Love You” just like the movies. Yet the greatest of all…being old enough to make all of those dreams come true, plus more…..
In all these, Life is remains a Thriller, at the peak of the fantasies, imaginations and endless wishes, the reality of maturity creeps in like claws tearing the beauty of the castles of the innocence of the soul within, with an unforgettable truth that ‘Every Pleasure come with a pain that leaves us never the same’…at the point, that ‘Phase ‘ begins
…It starts with the swelling of the chest, a desired change…yet it is the dawn of the painful crawl at the core of our feminity along with the cascade of the blood flow that would be an uninvited visitor every month; The voice crack commences, a wanted development…but then you awaken to the depth of your discharge, unaware of what it truly means though Mummy comes around to tell you “It doesn’t matter, you’ll be okay just go have your bath”. In all of these, Life suddenly has a different meaning, nothing feels easy or the same as it used to; the simple things turns into complicated thoughts; innocent fantasies become curious discoveries ; mutual companionship grows into the desire for deeper intimacy….In that single phase, the days of careless laughter, unending playtime and life without a worry slowly evolves into a sudden consciousness of everything, in a different way…the worry of the future, the whirlwind of unexplainable emotions which reveals the true personality we possess and from a childish wish of a simple kiss it grows into a burning desire to taste the hidden pleasure that holds a promise of so much more….
From that moment, what was once a cluster of childish castle of fantasies with harmless purity evolves to an adventure of experiment and discoveries with pieces of destroyed naïveness trailing the path of this journey….and they call it ‘The Phase of Adolescence and Growing Maturity’
P.S: It doesn’t end here…It’s only the beginning of an unveiling reality, see you next edition
Written by: Amazing
With the name Amazing 'Ur Mystery', it is the definition of a personality with unconventional style of writing to describe Real Life emotions&experiences.
Discovering her path back to Writing after a very long break to explore another passion...Broadcasting; this time attempting a different approach of 'Poetic Imaging'
A lover of Soul music, midnight, dark chocolate, a good cuddle *wink* & everything unusual. Finds inspiration from the twisted realities & experiences which find its expression in her writing
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